If I released my feelings into the world.

If I  felt all the anger and hurt and sadness.

I would lose myself in a ball of curled

Pain, open to heartbreak and madness.


This is the truth, teasing and tearing

My world. I want to be complete.

To offer her myself in strength, a flaring

Explosion of fire. A force for her to meet.


So I work and I strain

To be the best I can.

To answer, to abstain

From sadness. To forget what began.


My heart chooses her

My lust and my longing.

My feelings a saboteur

As I search for belonging.


Take me my love,

As you soar above

Me in understanding

I give you my longing.