If I released my feelings into the world.
If I felt all the anger and hurt and sadness.
I would lose myself in a ball of curled
Pain, open to heartbreak and madness.
This is the truth, teasing and tearing
My world. I want to be complete.
To offer her myself in strength, a flaring
Explosion of fire. A force for her to meet.
So I work and I strain
To be the best I can.
To answer, to abstain
From sadness. To forget what began.
My heart chooses her
My lust and my longing.
My feelings a saboteur
As I search for belonging.
Take me my love,
As you soar above
Me in understanding
I give you my longing.